My Journey of Healing and Connection with My Guardian Angel
My Story: How Connecting to My Guardian Angel Changed My Life
Suicidal Ideation
Although it was a relatively minor family argument that triggered me to question whether I wanted to be here anymore, it was really the result of a gradual process of losing myself that started in childhood and intensified when I became a full-time carer for my mother in 2004. I grew up in a family of six that struggled to connect. I often felt unseen and unsure of my place. Over time, thoughts of suicide would occasionally enter my mind during periods of intense emotion or feeling unloved. While I never intended to act on these thoughts, the pain of wishing I did not exist was slow and largely invisible to others.
Becoming My Mother’s Carer and Codependency
Caring for my mother after her stroke created a situation ripe for codependency. I derived a sense of purpose and love from being needed, which narrowed my world and caused me to lose touch with who I was outside this role. My creativity and self-love were set aside. When my mother passed away suddenly, I was left feeling lost, without direction or reason. For many years, I continued to fall into codependent patterns, seeking validation through helping others rather than nurturing myself.
Rock Bottom and Discovering My Guardian Angel
On Christmas Day 2021, I reached my lowest point. Feeling completely alone, I questioned whether life was worth continuing. Memories of cultural stories about angels, such as It’s a Wonderful Life, prompted me to consider that perhaps I had a guardian angel watching over me. I took a leap of faith and reached out to connect with this presence. Accepting that my guardian angel loved and supported me unconditionally marked the beginning of a transformative journey.
Shadow Work and Healing
With the support of my guardian angel, I began shadow work and guided healing exercises to uncover patterns in my life. I faced my past codependent relationships and low self-esteem, recognising how these habits had contributed to my struggles. Gradually, I reclaimed my personal power, learning to prioritise myself and rebuild healthy connections.
Guardian Angels and Support in the Workplace
Applying this spiritual support to my care work created immediate relief. Asking my guardian angel to guide me during challenging moments made me feel less alone and more confident. Intuition and gentle guidance helped me navigate professional and emotional challenges, leading to practical solutions such as arranging complex care packages that eased my responsibilities and restored balance.
Clearing Debt and Finding Freedom
Facing a £35,000 debt from past caregiving and financial obligations was overwhelming. I asked my guardian angel for support and guidance, and with help from a compassionate debt advisor, I achieved insolvency. The relief of clearing this burden allowed me to plan my future without fear and embrace new opportunities.
Soul’s Purpose and Creating a New Life
With my financial and emotional weight lifted, I focused on discovering my true purpose. Guided by inspiration and intuition, I began writing my book and developing a career supporting others. I realised that my calling was as a Life Doula, helping people navigate the living moments between birth and death with love, guidance, and practical support. My guardian angel played a constant role in guiding and empowering me, helping me build a life rooted in peace, creativity, and purpose.